i forgot how it felt like to be in the forties
filled with regrets

"They hide behind the ‘security’ of books or computers or music, because they would rather feel life than have to live it. They would prefer to hide from people, because people hurt, leave, betray, let down, and intimidate. They prefer silence over noise, awkwardness over perfection, and honesty over lies."

I often wonder how many people I know in real life secretly follow my blog.

a part, apart.
its funny how the space creates different meanings
oh well... worrying just messes with your mind

it was awesome
her voice, the music and pretty setup on stage.
the different inspirations to her songs
and definitely talents from all three of them.
they can play more than one instrument, from keyboard, guitar,trumpet... damns.
Lenka sounded perfect. The songs she sang were like her records blasting from my ipod.
it was so awesome live.

i tire myself out a little too much this week.
i need sleep, i need rest and i need to go out even more. hoho.
time past so fast.

Happy New Year to all the Muslims. =)

Chalet spells sweat, stinky, humid,screams and for sure one hell of a great time! hurhur!


Believe it...... =)




i cant decide bout tmr! urgh!

my needs are fulfilled and i am very happy and pleased.
thank you Mom for your kind contributions and discounts =)
and did i mention black is sexy and sizzling hot!
oh baby gadgets, welcome!

work have been really dull and i couldn't see how much worst it could get with having flu. darn this sucks. i don't know if i should go later on. i'm scared if it could get any worst cause i have some awesome events to look forward to and i really need to recover soon. mc wouldn't help cause despite the rest, i still have piles of work to do. oh my baby pretty nose, fight this flu. get well soon sayang!

the day out was effingly irritating with fucking shitheads who just don't know to shut their fucking pie hole. there are limits to talking ALOUD repetitively. this is a simple illustration of humans and how they communicate. and today there were two situations with FUCKING IRRITATING SHITHEADS. and sadly, they are of the same fucking irritating blood. be it in english or their own language. learn to shut the hell up. and fucking stop boasting.
i need to focus only on the good stuffs to hear. i get irritated with noise. GRR.



awww aunty sha and uncle afnan bought for mikael 3tops and 1 bottom.
CUTE KAN! hahahaahah! he can totally turn my frown upside down!

i got tons of work that i brought home but yet to be done. and needs it by tmr. eh lek! its alr 12AM. fuck i mean later on today. URGH. i cant believe i've done quite a couple of chores today. damns. anw i am fucking pissed with those who don't appreciate. eg. my younger sister. HOT BURN! browse MY CUPBOARD, MY STUFFS, MY CLOTHES than TRY IT, MESS IT and pretends nothing happened. i take notice of the slightest change in my room ever since A HELL LOAD OF MY STUFFS ARE MISSING. fucking messed up life. no one to talk to?! c'mon you're always and forever in your room tearing over IDONTKNOWWHAT/WHO. but i practically couldn't care less. its way more awesome to care for my cute cats. esp comel and manis. damn appreciative lah sia! ok gotta turn in early, have an early day tmr, EH LEK! my work. urgh. ok lah happy working than.

i got to lose that 40%, i really desperately need to.

awesome time spent =)

my plans was a success, like finally after many other failed plans.
gotta thank YuFang and Yanti's Family for making this mini surprise happen.the 2 weeks before hand preparation was all worth it when i saw how surprised Yanti was. With the laughter and smile it totally made my day. I love how deep the purple are in most of the gifts. and i simply love the pretty balloon. hahaha. i'm glad you had fun on your 20th! =)


a week ago i came home with a pink heart-ed bedsheet on my bed. i'm a huge fan of bedsheets and comforters, with awesome designs, colours and stripy ones too but never once my mom bought me 'mommy & me' elephant print bedsheet !??!?! HAHAHAH! i was rolling on the ground laughing real hard, texting and mms-ing about the fact that my mom bought me that. i love the heart prints... erm only. heh. its so pink. and elephant? and 'mommy & me'?! what was on my mom's mind when she bought this. when i asked she said it was on sale. hahaha. i guess she just misses the fact that we as in my mom and me do not have the 'mommy & me' time. hahahahah! and today she actually tidied my room and changed my bedsheet. awwww. aint she sweet? i couldn't remember when was the last time she did this, mind you FOR ME?!!??! thanks mom.


today would be a prettier day on bed asleep but instead i worked and chilled at grany's. most of the time i told myself 'after work, straight home and rest' but never happen. ahahaha! its either i'm out having dinner, chilling at either grany's or sis's or i'm home infront of my dying laptop(this is still not resting), resting simply means a good sleep. i have been sleeping in car rides. damns.

erms i should go to my pinky bed and sleep now. roar.

others would come together without you knowing
just to see the brightest of your smile
deep inside everyone else's happiness would lift this spirit up high
it would than be my happiness to
i hope you would sleep, smiling knowing i am still here for you

i may not have as much friends but you'll know where to find me
i am missing too many people already =(